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Monday, February 20th, 2006
12:31 am	i swear if it has tires or testicles, its bound to give you trouble. suddenly, there might be men in my life. strange no? sure one of them is an not out, ultra conservative, liberal disliking, non art appriceating, non drinking, inarticulate closet case, and the other is my bosses attempt to hook me up, but why the hell not? Current Mood: bemused Current Music: bt- simply being loved (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 12th, 2006
12:51 am	so i'm in love with william finn. and i'm really really really really tired of people talking about god right now. i'm not against god, i like god actually alot, but i'm just sick of hearing about him/her/it. period. auditions today. freak out. i'm tired and i need some food. Current Mood: happy Current Music: infinite joy: the songs of william finn (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 31st, 2006
12:10 am	so i got tagged. 8 traits in the perfect mate! (say, thats catchy- i should apply for a TM) -a penis et al -a charming smile -patience! -taller than me -NOT skinny (how ironic, considering the major crushes of my life have all been pencils) but not fat either -intelligence -expressive eyes and/or face (aw hell, just expressive in general) -involved with/understanding of my commitment to art so i sorta stormed out of the dorms tonight. left my phone and id and everything. i was proud of myself. i didn't go back, and i got some work done, which is what i need to be doing in the first place.it irritates me a little i must admit. i put on my new shirt and hat and thought i was looking damn sexy, and thought "well hes gonna call me and we can go hang out" and so i waited and ran my errands and stuff and got food and went to camilles room and started working on script stuff. no call. when i finally showed up at his room he was tumbling about in the bed with wench hell-anie, so i left. and i thought "this is re-enforcement that i should be working, and not wasting time" b/c i have soo much to do to be on top of things. so he came upstairs to camilles room where i was reading and was like "lets hang out" and i was like "no" and then got my shit and left. and he followed me and i didn't give in. fuck you, zack powell, see if i get dressed up to hang out with you again. fuck if i hang out with you again period. jimmie, jon, maureen, i tag YOU! ps. lets talk about how amazing is basement jaxx. specifically, everything they do. specifically, the song "always be there" Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: always be there- basement jaxx (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 19th, 2006
1:21 am	just when i thought i was done with sex i have some thats pretty amazing. ahhhh. Current Mood: worn out in a good way (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 17th, 2006
11:00 pm	i think its time to play the 'stop interacting outside of necessity' game. b/c i'm being a bad friend and i don't like how i feel. and i need to focus... can we say 24 hours? and its not like half of them are dance class... we've got a number of (what i expect to be) heavy involvement- directing 1, directing the musical, mime, stagecraft (which normally wouldn't but ed is teaching it and i want to work hard for him) and the juggernaut, drew's scene study. plus voice, ballet 2, jazz 2, a show, a review, an outside class study with danette of voice (and right now, its just me and lindsey and camille- ah how wonderful it feels to be exclusive a little). le sigh. i think i'm destined to be one of those people who just doesn't do close relationships with people- maybe thats what i need to get to... i don't know. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: ragtime- we can never go back to before (Comment on this)
Friday, January 13th, 2006
2:58 am	la sonnambula la perichole carmina burana swan lake sleeping beauty sometimes, you just need a little classical music in your life. i better get to direct the fantasticks or i'm gonna make a big old stinking pile of hell raising. Current Mood: appeased Current Music: carmina burana- carl orff (Comment on this)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
1:31 am	went and hung out with zack tonight. we talked last night. maybe things will be ok now. dear god, if i can only not compare myself with him i will be ok. o fantasticks, i want to direct you so badly. but i cannot talk about you to all my friends as i want to cast them. please let me keep my mouth shut, and let me be able to do it with the cast i have in mind. Current Mood: artistic Current Music: bounce - original cast recording (Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
5:48 am	so zack problems tonight. i don't know what to do with him- and why am i so stupid? stayed up talking to laurie til 5 tonight. hardcore tired tonight. perhaps he will talk to me tomorrow. Current Mood: tired Current Music: close your eyes- a fine and private place (Comment on this)
Thursday, January 5th, 2006
2:05 am	so a long time. yes? i xanga too. but i missed live journal. and i can talk here about people on xanga, and they won't know. i don't actually have alot to say right this very instant. this is like a fuck buddy you haven't had in like 2 years... and as i'm startin to get busy you remember how amazing they are... its kinda like that... anyway, holla if you remember who i am... o yes. and the best part. mood and music. Current Mood: content Current Music: sweeney todd- johanna (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 1st, 2005
2:06 am	i am better now. best friend has calmed me and assured me that i am still the center of attention, and even if he's lying to me, it makes me feel better. god, i'm such a fucking diva. thats all for now, too late for more. Current Mood: better Current Music: fontella bass- since i fell for you (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, January 31st, 2005
1:47 am	so the boy that is my best friend is now dating. and i feel like i lost the battle or something. i hate the thought of him being intimate with someone. and i could never say anything b/c i like the girl and i'm happy for him. but damnit, i hate hurting myself like this! why do i even try to make friends? they just end up going off and getting into relationships and leaving me. so here i am, the gay best friend who will never have anyone anyway, but keeps attaching himself to others in a search for something he will never get. god, i am so pathetic. Current Mood: like shit Current Music: i can't make you love me- bonnie raitt (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 30th, 2005
1:04 pm	my pizza is burnded. i need new clothes. i hope i got hired by LOOK, and i really really really hope i could play motel from fiddler for them. i love A Little Night Music. i need to clean my room. i hope you all enjoyed that. Current Mood: content Current Music: it would have been wonderful- a little night music (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 28th, 2005
8:20 pm	hola. here i am again. who knows if i'm going to update again? i don't. you Can check me out at xanga if you wish to read... excentrikred is the username. Current Mood: mellow (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 30th, 2004
2:46 am	so where do i start? boy 1 (new boy one) has been around since the beginning of the semester. i've been crushing on him since then, wondering if he was gay or not. there seemed to be definite tension when we would talk before. but then pippin happened and we didn't talk much right after that. but i've started hanging out more since we started this other show, and tonight i went out for coffee with him and his best friend, boy 2 (who's not important, but he shall remain nameless anyway). so yea, definitely had sex with boy 2 before i knew boy 1. i tell boy 1 this when we have a moment alone and he sorta freaks out. fast forward thru the evening to 2 in the am, as i am leaving. and i ask him about it, if it changes things between us. and he says i don't know. and then, we have a half hour conversation in the parking lot. and i wanted him to talk so badly, so badly. but he won't. he says he doesn't talk about himself. i don't know. i'm lost. i don't know what i want, i don't know what he wants. i don't know if i've fucked things up beyond repair. he says that he sees me different now. like physically. he says my eyes aren't as clear as the used to be. that makes my heart hurt. i don't know at all. i want to sit down and figure this out. *bottomless stomach feeling* Current Mood: con-the-fuck-fused Current Music: hyperballad- bjork (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 30th, 2004
11:53 pm	*snap* peas (a.glover) gurl (she said as she snapped her sweet peas) mama this is bull shit said this is bull shit all this mothafucka ever wanna do is drank and shit and eat shit i work all day feet is tired mind is tired from the grind and this lazy ass fool sitting on his ass lazy like a fool ain't done a damn thang all damn day gurl (she snapped as she ate her sweet peas) all i said was shit. Current Mood: giggly Current Music: on the right track- pippin (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 28th, 2004
7:53 pm	for an early autumn evening (advent of change) (a.glover) fading away as summer to fall day to dusk the chill of the wind holds change but what? something sad and something is dying quietly audible only in the rustle of leaves as the ignite yellow and orange and then brown like skin growing cold but still on the trees becoming brittle and finally falling to be crushed to be beautiful and blaze brilliant and die. Current Mood: hopeless Current Music: the gravel road- village soundtrack (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 24th, 2004
12:14 am	dont you hate it when you go out on a limb, and do something that terrifies you, and then you find out it was a worthless move anyway? ya, i did that tonight. and it sux. i was at this latin dance they were having at wsu, and brad *choir boy* had said he would be there, so i was like ..... hmmm...... so i went and found one of my other friends and danced with her, all the while thinkin about askin brad to dance. so i'm freakin out about it, and i finally go and ask him, and he's like sorry, i can't b/c i'm working the drink table. blah blah blah, so i protested and said he should just dance for a minute, and we got out and twirled a bit. and then that was it. and i felt stupid and ridiculous and foolish and juvenille, and i think i've fucked up any chances i have, but i prolly didn't have any to start with. i saw him dancing with this other guy earlier in the evening (apparently, when he wasn't working) and the guy was skinny and blond, of which i'm neither. ugh i just hate this i found a new musical i love. a man of no importance. more later, too >>>>ugh<<<< right now Current Mood: let down and foolish Current Music: cure for the itch- linkin park (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 21st, 2004
11:53 pm	so i had an update idea. but then i lost it before i could update. i had a good vent out after rehearsal tonight with richard (another music theatre major/pit singer (ass kisser) in pippin). both of us are getting increasingly frustrated at the wasting of our time with pit singing, b/c we could be working or actually IN a show, instead of just singing in the pit for one. also, since we started rehearsing, the non freshman pit singers have either dropped out, or somehow mysteriously appeared onstage now, with the exception of richard. he feels screwed over, or rather, more screwed over than the rest of us, which is pretty damn screwed over. also, his best friend is the lead, which doesn't help things. oy vey. i just have to keep telling myself that i'm putting in dues, i wasn't to the level i would have needed anyway, i'm getting there, this is worth it. but it still fuckin sux, and it is even worse when they say things like "o we need you guys, we are so happy you are here" and all that crap. i don't need lip service, we all know that the pit singers are only there b/c 1)they are on music theatre scholarship, and it would be silly not to involve them in the show somehow or 2)asskissing is always in style, and its better to get it over and done with and then move on. my goal is to be in mtw, or an equivalent, over the summer. thats alot of work, but i can do it, i think. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: olive- you're not alone, or bjork- desired constellation (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
12:20 am	a post about boys i'm talkin to a gay frat boy. brad is a gay boy who sits next to me in choir, who smells like tea leaves, won the gore scholarship, and still wears his class ring. alex is a boy who used to be my best friend until he became the devil incarnate and lost all capacity for good, and hurt laura (a non-boy) and kk (also a non-boy). brian is a boy who is a gta at wsu. he is scruffy-not skinny cute, and sings opera. phillip is the boy that brian likes. poo on phillip. eleanor is my non-boy car. but she is going to wear ties. steven sondheim is a boy who wrote ASSASSINS, from which i am doing a monologue. john wilkes booth is the boy i'm being in that monologue. drew tombrello is a boy who teaches my acting class and, i fear, is going to anihilate me tomorrow when i do my monologue. Current Mood: thinkin Current Music: desired constelation- bjork (Comment on this)
Thursday, September 16th, 2004
11:11 pm	Emily (for kristen- an invocation for peace) (a.glover) think of Emily and the palm trees poems and prose roses and orchids delicate flower smile at the memory follow the curl of her hair see the depth of her eyes listen for soft enchanting captivating articulation the breath of live bestowed upon the written word the silence that surrounds her vibrant and humming and peaceful like the inaudible sway of her dress as she, smiling and Emily smile, floats to the california coast. Current Mood: introspective Current Music: prospero's speech- lorenna mckennitt (Comment on this)